This day gets a...B minus

My man ended up working all day.  And by all day I mean he left at 6:30 am and now I'm in bed at 10:30pm and he is still on set.  *sigh* 

Me and many spouses around the world home alone.  Home with kids. Poor lulu. I'm so lame after a full day alone with her.  When Samm is gone all day/evening I go into survival mode.

After 2nd nap we snuggled in the recliner and munched cookies while I finished my greys anatomy episode (yes I am ashamed. We should have read books or something). Keats the cat was on my lap swishing his tail in her face the whole time.  We ordered pizza for dinner as a kindof pity party, and I wore her in the the moby wrap through the rain to pizza hut. 

Every boring errand with Lulu along becomes an adventure.  People melt in her presense. They want to talk about their children.  The middle age black lady walking out with 2 pizzas tells me about her 13 year old son who only in recent years stopped sleeping in her bed.  We admitted how much we adored nursing. I said I bet she had such an awesome bond with her son when she seemed  apologetic for co-sleeping.  Who cares!  Mom, you gotta do what you gotta do! 

As Lulu flopped along strapped to my front, I felt so grateful to have her.  So delighted by how interested she was in the umbrella. The pizza box.  The rain drops. 

But also so weary in the face of her boundless energy.  I'm so lazy. So boring.  She is this lighting bug buzzing around my house, carefully piling potatoes in my huge sack of baking soda, giggling when I chase her, shaking with rage when I do not let her play on the dishwasher door.

So much person in such a tiny sweet package. 

I feel my day was a dud. Didn't clean much.  Didn't finish taxes.  Didn't ---- (fill in the blank with 20 other things, shower being among them).

Actually I started writing a song.

And I hung out with Lulu the little firefly. 

I don't know exactly where the line is between living in the moment and eating cookies so you can make it through the moment.  Well, as my friend Christine noted today, gaining weight does put a damper on the cookie plan.